Thursday, April 26, 2012

Letters to Eidan: First time at the Park!

My Dearest Eidan,

Last weekend, your Daddy invited us to go with him at the park. While he went off to go bike riding, you and I hung out at the kid's playground. Granted, everyone was much older than you, but you seemed to enjoy watching all the hustle and bustle. You giggled when you heard other kids screaming and crying, and you laughed when you saw a little girl squeal with happiness when she went down the slide. So, I took you to the smallest slide, and down we went! At first you seemed scared, but then you realized it was fun, and you started laughing so hard!

Ready to hit the playground!

It's almost 6 months now, and you are proving to be a very happy, curious baby, Eidan. You look around you with such wonder and joy, that even simple things like the wind in your face makes you smile and giggle. You really seemed to enjoy being outdoors this weekend, and I hope to have many, many more fun memories like this with you!

Here's "drooling at 'ya", Mom

Wednesday, April 18, 2012

Mommy Musings: Eidan's smile

I've been MIA for a bit due to a surgery I had a few weeks back, and I am still recovering from it. After the C-section, and then this, my body is having a hard time bouncing back. In effect, I feel very... lackluster lately.

This feeling has been nagging me for a while now. I feel so emotionally, physically, and even spiritually drained. Work has been more demanding, and of course, having an infant at home takes up a LOT of time and energy. Add housechores to the mix, and you have one tired person right here. Trying to wear all the hats I need to (mother, wife, friend, employee, maid?, etc...) and at times, I just want to hide in a dark corner and cry. I've always prided myself on being a strong and independent person, but now, more than ever, I need support. I feel a bit lost. And unappreciated in a lot of ways.

What really gets me through not so good days is my son. Now, when I am having a bad day, when I am so sore and tired from everything I do, I think about him. I think about his antics and gurgles. I focus on the fact that he is healthy and not wanting for anything. Most of all, I remind myself that while I feel I am falling short on all the other things in my life-- I am not failing at the most important job of all, and that is being a Mother. No matter how stressful a deadline is, or how much people or things annoy me sometimes, I think of his smile. And that makes me smile as well, and remember that I have been blessed with the greatest gift of all.

Eidan's smile makes everything better!

Tuesday, April 17, 2012


I know, I know, I am so late to the party... But I finally downloaded and joined Instagram...

Now, my friends are trying to make me join Pinterest and Twitter too... Baby steps, friends, baby steps...

My mini herb garden - Sweet Basil and Chives

Beads for a necklace I am about to make

Come see what crazy pictures I come up with... follow ButterflyLilies on Instagram!

Tuesday, April 10, 2012

Letters to Eidan: Month 4

My Dearest Eidan,

Today is your 5 month birthday! While they say March is one of the longer months, it seemed like Month 4 went by like a blur. It was another month of firsts, and you really never cease to amaze your Dad and I with how bright and alert you are.

Month 4 was when we started you on solids (read about it here). It's also when you started getting on your hands and knees and leapfrogging! Yes, you my little peanut, are so determined to get to your toys or whatever catches your attention that you are no longer satisfied with wriggling like a little worm. Instead, you've figured out that you can get on your hands and knees and "launch" yourself and it gets you farther, faster. I told your Dad, I think we really need to baby proof the house now! I took a few videos of it, and when you are old enough, you can watch them (Eidan's video) and see what a determined little baby you are.


I finally bought you a jumperoo, because holding up all 16lbs of you while you jump up and down on my lap is quite a workout. Now I understand why most moms have very toned and strong arms! You are limited to about 20-30 minutes of play in the jumperoo but you sure make every second count!

Your little bookshelf is getting filled up with more and more books, and I am happy that you still seem to enjoy our nightly routine of reading before bed. For the past few days, you've actually been the one turning the pages of your books! And you have figured out what the big red button on your mobile is for. You see me push it to turn on the lights and sounds of your mobile, and you've decided you can do it too!

We love to read
You've started sleeping better through the night, and that has been a very welcome change for both your Dad and I. Unfortunately, this month, you also got your first fact you are still recuperating from that. It breaks my heart to see you so uncomfortable, struggling to breathe through your stuffy nose, not sleeping well or eating well because you dont feel good. All I wanted was to wrap you up in a big hug and take all of that away! I would do anything to shield you from all the bad and painful things in this world, Eidan.

Getting checked out at the doctor's office (with Grandma)

I know that as you grow older and bigger, I cannot always be there to protect you through colds and fevers,  and all the other things life will throw your way. But your Dad and I both know that raising you well, with strong morals and beliefs, teaching you kindness and honor, showing you the importance of respect and love, will go a long way in life. I want to raise you to be the kind of boy, and eventually man, who will know how to stand up for himself, and for others.

Happy, happy baby!

I am excited to see what happens as you turn 5 (months). Like I said before, it is a year of firsts for us, and I am savoring each and every moment.

Love, always and forever,

Eidan's first Easter